8-9 months ago I was called a loser, I was hurt incredibly bad by some family members. The words hurt, but what hurt more is the people who didn't stand up for me, the person who stayed silent, and appeared more or less in agreement that I in fact was a loser, and all the other horrible untrue things this idiot of a man said.
Now being 3000 miles away I've heard "I miss you, I love you…" More than I ever did when I was there. The same people who put me down are now taking a sudden interest in me… Thinking "gee, maybe she IS somebody"
I call this journey my "Liberty Walk"
That's the title of the song I would put on repeat to heal the anger and the pain. It starts off :
"here's to all the one's tryin to hold you back tryin to make you feel like you're less than that, givin nothin more better than to make you crack but really just really just tryin put your dreams off track…
we gonna get it when we live it…walk, its a liberty walk, walk
saying goodbye to the people who tied you up,
its a liberty walk walk feelin your heart again breathin new oxygen, free yourself slam the door, don't praise them anymore"
Everytime I get angry I sing the line:
"don't stop just keep on walkin, don't stop keep on talkin sh*t" from that song to myself because it's a reminder to myself that I can hold my head high whereas the only thing the people who put you down have is to talk
I thank God everyday that he gave me the ability to see beauty in art and music and to use it to be able to cope with life, and hopefully help others in some way. That's when I decided – wanted to go into entertainment when I realized the inspiration the entertainment industry was on my life.
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